Tuesday, January 22, 2008


I'll be damned if almost every man I have ever been involved with hasn't either been in jail or is there now. WTF? Maybe the step-monster was right and I did have some sort of freak light on my forehead.
In one way I am thinking "na-na-boo-boo" to both Kevin and Tim. In another way, I feel bad for Tim. That is until I really stop and think about the shit he put me through. I thought of writing him to say hey, I know where you are.....but that seems kinda stalker-ish. Besides, there isn't really a lot we have to talk about, both of us have moved on.
Speaking of moving on, I am still having those horrible dreams about Steve and multiple women. I don't know who any of them are, but they are in my dreams and it's hard to sleep at night. Then when I wake up, I'm so freakin' mad at him for whatever he did in my dream. I'm still very curious to find out what is on that damn computer of him. I'm thinking it is some sort of freaky porn, or all his "love" letters to the skunt (hehe, I love that word). Hell, I ain't got shit to hide, why does he feel like he needs to hide stuff from me? Does he think I'll judge him? God, far be it from me to judge people. I've done some fucked up shit in my life, who the hell am I to say something is freaky or wrong?

Still waiting on word from VUPS, damnit, I hope I don't hear another "you are too qualified"...how can you be too qualified if you've never done something in that field? I don't want to go back to nursing, but I will if I have to. Thank God I don't have that much debt. I just want to go ahead and get back to work so we can get Steve's stuff paid off and get into a house. Oh yeah, marriage would be nice somewhere along the way. I'm not going to rush that though, I think Steve has realized that living with me is not as easy as he thought it would be.

Ok, I'm off of here, more later, maybe.

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