Goodbye says it all

"Photograph"

Look at this photograph
Everytime I do it makes me laugh
How did our eyes get so red
And what the hell is on Joey's head

And this is where I grew up
I think the present owner fixed it up
I never knew we'd ever went without
The second floor is hard for sneaking out

And this is where I went to school
Most of the time had better things to do
Criminal record says I broke in twice
I must have done it half a dozen times

I wonder if it's too late
Should i go back and try to graduate
Life's better now then it was back then
If I was them I wouldn't let me in

Oh, oh, oh
Oh, god, I

Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye.
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye.

Remember the old arcade
Blew every dollar that we ever made
The cops hated us hangin' out
They say somebody went and burned it down

We used to listen to the radio
And sing along with every song we know
We said someday we'd find out how it feels
To sing to more than just the steering wheel

Kim's the first girl I kissed
I was so nervous that I nearly missed
She's had a couple of kids since then
I haven't seen her since god knows when

Oh, oh, oh
Oh, god, I

Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye.
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye.

I miss that town
I miss the faces
You can't erase
You can't replace it
I miss it now
I can't believe it
So hard to stay
Too hard to leave it

If I could I relive those days
I know the one thing that would never change

Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye.
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye.

Look at this photograph
Everytime I do it makes me laugh
Everytime I do it makes me...

Tomorrow, I am going to go say goodbye. I look back at the last 2 and a half years and wonder, is there something I could have done to change things? Is there any reason or logic behind trying to change someone other than for your own personal gain?

I haven't heard his voice in almost a year, not in a way I normally would have heard it. I wonder if I can hold it together long enough to say what I need to say. I need closure. I want him to know that life does go on. I honestly believed at one time it did not. I depended on him as much as the oxygen I breath. At times I felt strangled by the hold he has on me. Some days I wonder if he still doesn't.

By now, I thought I would be well on my way to recovering my life. Somewhere along the way there was a set back. I don't feel as though I can go on until I have said what I need to say. There are so many bottled up emotions. Who to turn to? Certainly not the one who destroyed me. Not the one who loves me with all his heart. So I keep it inside and wait. I feel it ticking like a clock. Tomorrow will be the day I finally let it all out.

When all is said and done, I want to walk away into arms that don't deceive me, a heart that loves me and a man who deserves so much more than what I could ever give him.